Feeling depressed.

I think Soccer gambling has hurt me real bad. It cause me to lose control of myself.After so long, then I finally don wanna bet. Even if I have the money, I would use it to save, cuz the feeling of having no $$ sucks real bad,

This pic is saved in my lock screen. It is to remind myself what I have been through. Finally, I'm gonna tell my bestie about my gambling addiction. I always feel that it's like ruining the image that my bestie they all have of me. But Rannie say no one is perfect. They will accept me for who I am. I admit I change a lot. And I kind of hated myself for it. I should have never ever touch soccer betting. It cause me to lose myself. Is it considered late to regret now? I try not to think about all those losses that I  have made. But thinking about my future had me worrying. I think I need to go buy some self-enrichment books, Especially those that teaches me to be positive about life. I am feeling hopeless. 

At least I know I have friends who care for me. 

I hope the next post would be something happier.