ok, stupid internet and so won't be online for a long time~ Anyway, going to be sec 3 le.. don't think can fool around le ><
Don't like ...... sigh ..
So must use well the time for these 2 months~!!
And play like siao~!!!! xD
Anyway, stop here bah~ :)

Hmm..

Damn long never post cuz sze hui lur~ >< Don want go school, also don know should do what with her x.x
Damn.
I'm like becoming a crybaby le.. well, back to like last time~ T.T
K. So, i should not slack. :)
Jia you jia you~!!
:D
I got to make myself happier ^^
Got to express myself more ..
And And.. shouldn't be so lazy ..
Some day, i got to make my house become clean!
All should i say by this year, got to make it clean, good for me and my family too :D
What I lack of uh..
I want to go universal studio again!! And the next time, I will be more prepared and have lots lots of fun!!!!! xD
Damn.
I got to accept more people.
K, what i've missed out was having fun with my friends around me...
K.. stop here bah :)
Bye.



Does anyone know me enough to judge me?
I wanted to be a bad girl too.. but idk how ><
Suan le.
Today in the morning on the bus, saw him..
So.. that means i shouldn't regret then.. don think he recognize me le..
k, really stop here :)

Ok ..

So, don't have the mood to go and upload all photos~ ><
And also.. still got hw to do :P
Damn, mon gonna have school alr..
On thurs can go UNIVERSAL STUDIO!!
Damn Happy xDxDxD
I want play till 爽~！！！
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D!!!
Hmm..
Last night went to cousin's wedding~!
And saw Qin Yan there~
Lol, She's the groom's 堂妹and I'm the groom's 表妹。How coincidence is that uh :P
So coincidence right~! xD
Haha!! xD
Then then, today is DAD'S BIRTHDAY.
HAPPY BRTHDAY, DAD! XD
k, post next time ^-^

DAMN..

Again ><
So...
I think the problem is with my stupid INTERNET. =.=!!
OK, so..
I saw this blogskin~
And I love it :D
The one who make this blogskin is so good sia xD
I can change most of the stuffs ^-^
Just hope that the INTERNET don't FAIL again and cause me to lost all the infos =.=
And .. seems like I got to add more columns on the sidebar to put my links or music bla bla
Will do that next time then :)
so.. tomorrow cousin's wedding~!!
Congratulate in advance first xD
And k.. shall stop for now.

Woots~

Finally!! At least got one blogskin that I like ^^ Like finally~! xD
LOL. Just now really had the urge to post so like quickly find some blogskin and i found this xD
Quite cool :D
Ok.. Just now was super sad~ Just suddenly i think?
But I'm not going to be sad the whole time bla bla~
Hmm.. Ok, so I got to just say one thing and that is.. everyone had their flawness and not perfect but that's all right cuz if you're his/her friend, you will learn to accept it and not asking them to change.. but sometimes you just can't stand it .. isn't it..
And I'm getting tired a little of trying to 压制住自己的情绪。。
ok, so maybe i'm like a volcano.. if I really really really get fed up, I might become like... crazy?
Cuz the last time I'm being so crazy was those period when I use KNIFE/CHOPPER whatever to threaten someone? like my sis ar~ Don know what happened to me though during that time.. maybe I had enough with her as she had been bullying me since young even though she's younger than me one years old ..
So, PEOPLE. If you really had me making the urge to do that to you too..
It's either I really had it with you OR I really treats you like my sister and JUST don't like the way you treating me~!
K, I've said it. Like WHOA, Finally get to like express myself in one way~
I've been wanting to tell someone about this but whenever i want to mention it.. somehow, people just keep talking away, and you like need to fight with them to talk about it first.. And after you saying it.. they will like just like 随便敷衍你几句。。像是，oh that is like just .. don think about it le, what's past is past.. then they just continue where they left off.. Yeah.. I do know this means that Yep, that conversation is over~ Cuz maybe they don want me to trap in the past and tells me to just move on and forgot about that~?
It's like WTH?
do they even know what I want. K.. so no one really knows how I feel but I don want it that way.. just hope someone will know what I really want><
K.. don feel like posting it.. feel like deleting what I've wrote.
It's best that you people don't read it, hope your just say, 'hey, so many words, aiya sian, don want read' then go another blog. That's the best~!
Anyway, will post my trip from genting the next time~
Missing My show man.. just for wrting this stuffs that I'm like pecek with~!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Feels fun to be doing this!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!K, stop here!!!!!!!BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn.. Now all my info lost and i need to redo my blog..
Especially the links x.x
Don't feel like using com le, going off.
BYE.

On friday night ...

Going GENTING~! xD
K, i got damn lot of pics to post de lur but i'm damn busy to be posting x.x
Today is the last day of the YOG lur~ T.T
Sad sia~! D:
K, back to the pics~

16th AugustLOVE THE COLOUR OF THE SKY~!!! Rannie took it for me xD

After Rannie alight, then only left me and this man plus the driver~
Aiyoh, if this man not here then I can have the whole bus liao lur :X

18th August The IKEA Trip.






During this time, I don't like and really hate but still i did it and i realize... they can do it without me..
I hope one day, they will just give in to me~ Which i know it's impossible for one particular person, or maybe not just one~ what a day uh~ :(




Going back to school~

Forgot who play de but i think is vanessa and yi xing? O.o



20th August going back to school from the rehearsal thing~

Haha!! See their faces, especially Rui Jia~!! Haha!

Jing Yee~!




Haha~!! xD

22th August
First time went to pool~!!! xDxDxD Fun!! Want to do that the next time ^_^
Celebrating Sze Ling's Birthday :D
And also injured my toe on this day x.x


Hope I'm able to play ball :D
And and I can't wait for genting~!!
Even though it's such a short day, but better than nothing xD xD xD
Hope I'm able to have time to play all the rides there ~! ! ! xD
Tomorrow end at 12.30pm and don know what to do after school o.o~
Also, I HAVE CURFEW? Haha, first time sia, i need to go home by 6? actually it's i ownself want to reach home by 6~ My parents didn't tell me though~ :X

Okok, will post on sunday again about the genting trip~!!!
xD xD xD
Happy TTM!!!

Today went for YOG duty~!
Watch some of the matches and we are shouting and cheering xD
And VANESSA was the most noisy one! =p
Then then.. overall, the day was good xD Had fun with the teammates!! :D
Tomorrow going to watch the yog match~ And don know going to do what after that ><
Hope can hang out bah ^-^
Got alot of pics to upload~!! Next time then post them bah :)

And AND
HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY SZE LING!!
Tomorrow is her bday but just saying earlier only :P
Short post-

LIFE!
Long time never post o.o~
Recently don't really feel like posting x.x Mine is teriyaki thing~
Then Ting Ping is Scallop thing? lol.
Haha, cute? xD This look likes Zhong Feng like that. Lol
I name it Zooh~ Even though Canna said Zhoh as this looks like zhong feng and also it is a winnie pooh mah~
But I prefer Zooh~! xD ^_^




All this pic are taken while on the way (to or back? can't remember :x) VS.
Ate at TORI-Q with Rannie And Rui jia~! :D
Get it at arcade~ when Rannie, jing yee and me got tickets and change for it. PLay till Damn fun xD Esp that 'Shrek' thing, lol, jing yee keep screaming~ HaHa XD
Btw, the bear is adorable right? ;D
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Today actually wanted to study but at library halfway suddenly felt really really tired~! ><
So never study lur~ On mon, tomorrow, got math common test, wed going to what IKEA thing then on thurs have history test.. test test test.. history~ Hope my history will be ok x.x
加油~！
POst till here then.
BYE.

Yep, will never be the same. Cuz the memory still there and you won't be able to forget the pain.. how you get hurt~
Hmm... Arr.. staying at home sian uh ><
Let's just hope tomorrow will be a good day ^_^
Oh.. remember something~
My cousin going to get married~! xD
Congrats :D
The wedding will be at 10th sep, and 11th sep is my dad's bday sia~
Just now sze hui like so happy she's going to get her pay and thought on dad's bday can get something but then her next pay will be on 15th sep o~ Lol.
She like so happy going to get her pay~ Well, at leat she work for it de mah :)
Then like lateron dad said he's going to be 70 soon~
2 more years o.o
70 years old.
sound old.
Hope dad will live to 1oo :D
Grandma was like 90 something then passed away, quite old sia~

70.. I can't bear the thought of dad leaving us :(
Hope that day won't ever come

Okayyys~! Post till here :)
bye.

Short post again..

I think I'm like going to post a short post everyday like that ><
Tomorrow~! xD
It's tomorrow~!!!
Finally I can relax ^-^
Hope tomorrow the interview thing going to be a success and today is so funny during the english mr.Lim's lesson :D Haha xD
Tomorrow~! Will be a good day!! I suppose =p
Hope it will be a good day!!
I'm being too Happy about tomorrow??
Lol. Anyway, post till here~
BYE.

Seriously..

I just hate Oral TO THE MAX. =.=
But at least it's over! Even if i never did well, so what.. it's over~
I just don like oral ><
Tomorrow.. after tomorrow, on fri.. i'm going to scream......... Kidding~!
I mean I'm going to br HYPER~! XD
Nothing is going to stop me on friday~
Cuz finally.. I can relax and by next wed school will then reopen :D
Haha~ :D
So post till here?
Seriously.. idk what to post here ><
Nevermind.
Bye.

Actually I wanted to post something but then I forgot all about it><
Tomorrow, oral~! zzzzzzZZZZZZ
I just hate oral... sigh~!
Only after thurs' training then can I really be relaxed bah~ ><
-Short post.

Last night msn tio virus but then blame myself stupid for clicking that =.=
Anyway, the virus is gone :D I think?
Hope it will not spam virus again to others~
So sorry ><
Before went to sleep, there's a flying cockroach who keeps flying and drop down and flying and drop down -.-
But I never ever thought that I will be that afraid >< I even screamed?
When it was flying around me and I keep telling my dad to kill it, haha~ So I have girly moments and it's very girly x.x
Lol.
Yesterday went out with ting ping and went to Jp mah.. Walk around and when walk past to a pet shop? Saw one of the dogs and it was like sleeping but it's like dozing off.. The head keep like slowly go down then it goes up again, damn funny xD
Tomorrow is school day><
English oral coming~
Seriously, I just don't like oral man =.= Sucks to the max.
Post till here bah :) Going to go do argumentative essay x.x

Never post for this blog lur ~
Weekends now and english oral coming soon><
Hope I will be ok with it :)
Also had haircut yesterday but no difference huh :x
Oh nevermind..
Just a short post sia ..
This week..
Hmm... in conclusion.. good week :)
At first thought of having a part time job but when I see sze hui work till so late, make me realise that I just study well first and get good results :)
Dad is like having an expectations of me >< As I'm the oldest and sze hui also like giving up her studies le~
Sze Ling.. becoming more naughtier>< Dad always had problems controling her~
Hmm..
Watching Dragon Zakura.. Having the talk about courses yesterday, make me realise that I really really need to work hard but it seems I can't ><
Friends..
Wanting to say something but then.. don feel like saying it le~
K, stop here.
:)

Today went for the YOG thing~
Then... This week uh.. Days just keep going on and it won't just rest.. So time always gone so fast..
Like 'All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in the rain.'
Everything needs money, money, money~
Like my sis always have negative thinking towards life saying why must we still need to study ps: She hate study~ And also what she hope this life can just end faster, she find it a waste of time, maybe she just want to grow up faster and earn money and just tada~! This whole life is just gone like that.
I think I have STM, can't seem to remember what happened this week.. Everyday we will just like do the same thing, happily just end the day, I hate growing up somehow, need to go to the society bla bla and like what Ms. Chia show us about this drama, 'Dragon Zakura' about studying hard bla bla~ Haven watch finish but I think the show was quite good ar~
Hmm.. I haven thought of the future.. I wonder what my future will be o.o
Am I going to move? Just don't like being poor but no choice, I'm just in this family and kind of used to the life now.
Hope I can save a lot a lot of money at the end of this year =D And hoping that 'your' will make do with your promise and go shopping with me~! I really hope we can go together ^-^

Being quiet all over again.. somehow, I just can't keep the energy going.
I think I'm not trying hard enough.. Maybe I should try more harder, in order to change the way I am, change the way I'm used to be, but it just can't...
Oh well, I'm okay with how I am now, I don't need to change.
Study hard, jyjyjy :)
History, here I come ^-^
Maybe only those fun stuffs can keep me going high~
I really wish can go to have fun one day and my kind of 'fun' is those excite adventure~
So.. Really hope to go this year somehow~ There's a lot of wishes and i seem to can't fufil them~

It's like i have been taking a train and I'm been to many stops but I never stay for long, I would just continue to the next stop, cuz there's no one that can make me have trust in them and stay with them .. but at least till somewhere.. I have found a place where there's some that can make me stay, just this while, i hope i can stay till I'm not able to do it anymore~ But I know there's two places that I can stay everyday and so long and will not stop trusting them :) They give me the secure.

From monday to friday onwards, it's e-learning and so can use com everyday>< But to me,
as i can always use com so nothing to me~
Back from library just now, borrow A LOT of books~
And so lucky I saw the 'koizora' ^-^ Will post pics of that book next time :)
So post till here bah, going to go do homework or maybe read my books or do other stuffs instead of blogging le

-BYES

Today is Friday le, hah, it's CANNA & QIN YAN birthday~! xD
Happy Birthday to both of you!! xD
Since the last post, on the next day of that, somehow, the feelings I want, it's like come le~
Hmm.. Then I'm

I just feel I'm myself.
So.. Today celebrating youth day~! The was not really fun ><
This was even more FUN!!! And I damn <3 it!!
Got to eat popcorn, candy floss and get to eat some ice cream~
Went to Jp to celebrate Canna's birthday ^^ went to pepper lunch to eat xD But then, vanessa never eat, and cuz her to starve T.T And in the end, she need to go home and eat.
Sorry o~ Vanessa X.x
After 'POSB' then went Comics Connection, to Arcade~ Cuz wearing school uniforms and get caught several times and BOOM! We are out of the arcade x.x
Walk walk walk and 'bla bla bla' Reach home :)
Today, I enjoyed :D
And need to go le :) Will post the next time~! xD

I'm still afriad of what outcome will be regardless of what stuffs~

I don't want to lose friends, I don't want to be unhappy, I don't want to push my friends away from me.

I just can't make an effort to talk to my friends is it ... ...

I'm being quiet again~

I don't understand myself, I don't understand why I'M BEING SUCH AN IDIOT!

School has started and I think I'm getting used of it.

Since school starts, it's like I'm being quiet again, I don't like that feeling~

I find everything too tired, maybe I'm just tired.

I don't dare to speak up my mind, cuz I will only say stupid things out!

Sometimes I just can't take jokes, sometimes I just can't turn.. I feel like I'm supid..

Finally, I'm sad till I feel like crying.

I miss this feeling~

Happy? Hope I can feel that tomorrow~

I...................................................................... hope to have the confidence I want.

Is it I'm too soft? That's why when I want to talk, nobody really hears it, maybe that's why I don't really feel like talking.

THE MOMENT when I'm really happy, maybe a lot of memories of them but just that they don't really etched into my mind and heart. Well the sad memories, keep reminding me and what should I do to get the right feeling I want?

Should really find something to make me have the feelings that I truly want.

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I'm still young, enjoy my life~!

Chong Sze Min, the one and only ^.<

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Hi~ Recently too obsessed with those pictures that have meaning words xp
Anyway, only few days left for the June Holidays~
Make good use of these days bah :)
Feeling tired now but don want go sleep, hope everyday is a good day but that's not true at all.. You will have bad day on some days uh~
Got to go, next time post, bye~!