It's been a month and ... So much has changed. I have been through a whole hell of a roller coaster life.
In one month, I lose alot of money. I admit, I was obsessed with gambling, thinking I can win back my money. I still do, that is why I'm still playing lol
I don't even dare to tell my family and friends that I lose so much.
Well at least one friend knows about it, cuz he is in the same situation as me, just that he is in a much better condition than I am now, He no longer gambles, or should I say he bet very little now lol.
I am feeling damn shagggggg.
I don't know how to survive but of cuz still can survive.
But I really hate myself for getting into such a mess now.
I couldn't even sleep well, cuz thinking about the money problems.
I start to be a little anti-social, just a little.
I couldn't feel happy. Because I keep worrying about the money problems.
Looking back at the previous post, that one month ago, I was still being optimistic, say what gonna focus on my wellbeing hahah
Hmmmmm ....
So what happens to this one month..
Oh I haven run the 10km Run cuz Our founding father LKY passed away and on that day he was cremated.
It change date to AUG. which mean I still have a long way to go so I can take time to train hehehe
Start of School already, and it has passed one week. There are so many projects :(
I had a big headache for Entrepreneur :( I couldn't think any ideas for my team. Our team is so-so so... oh my, Idk man, Really wanna do well for this module, cuz you can be creative and come up with something that is useful to the society. Ohoh I need to pass up my CV, to prepare for next sem intern. I think that one can take time to do, since the deadline is 25May hahah
Now I don't even feel like going out often. Cuz I no spare money to spend.
I give myself deadline, by End of June at least I must win back a certain amount of money.
I know, I should have stop betting, but I know it really takes a lot of DISCIPLINE to control myself. Because I was too greedy, I did win money at first but I find it little so in the end I lose money instead hahah. So this time, I am going to really control myself cuz I cannot afford to lose anymore. I am being serious.
I really hope My Bursary can get through, cuz I really need the money to pay debts. To my family and friends.
For the next one month, hope by the time I post, it shall be a nice post.
This post is just too ....
Shall end the post with this, give me some motivation.
